My Journey Vaguely Linearized

Non-linear, time inept Jessica tries to put her life into a very brief, vaguely time-framed perspective in terms of personal growth. I am Jessica. To summarize my summary, I could say that I went from innocent arrogance and lack of empathy-->questioning existence and background-->increased self-awareness and understanding of self and others with increased empathy-->seeing my issues as connected to culture-->seeking a new journey oriented toward action.

Childhood Through Teensish: 

• Defend mostly my parents’ beliefs about religion and morality as well as impose them on others with insensitive judgement, believing I am doing what is right. 

• Action-oriented.
• Feel injustice but still indoctrinated into certain belief systems. Sometimes challenge them without positive responses from others.
• Occasionally have moments of awe and curiosity and a feeling of strangeness at the very fact that I am alive.
• Sure of what I think I know.
• Always a desire to improve myself.
• Love of beauty.

Late Teensish:

• One day intentionally deciding to “be philosophical” and stretch my mind by writing my own personal character sketch of whom I think God is abstractly and who we are as humans in relation to him/her/it. Realize that it comes much more naturally to me than I expected.
• Begin a journey of discovering my existential importance.
• Begin a journey to be less critical of others’ behavior and moral beliefs.
• Begin to be interested in psychology.

20sish:

• Begin a deeper journey of self-awareness, realizing just how self-aware I am not.
• Start to question the "rightness" of the things that had happened to me.
• Learning to validate and empathize with myself.
• Seek help from therapists.
• Increased self-awareness and sustained desire to not be hypocritical and to improve self leads to increased awareness and understanding of others.
• The journey begins for improved communication and to control destructive learned behaviors.

22ish: 

• Begin to “fight” for issues and relate my issues to the world. Begin to see myself as partially a product of society.
• Gain courage to start speaking out about issues like Feminism and other issues like how children should be treated, and to read more and more information relevant to these topics of interest to me.
• Challenge myself to implement ideals relating to these issues in my own life in personal ways as a personal challenge and example and a chance to decide not to let others dictate what I should and should not do excluding a certain small given necessary morality.
• Begin to set personal boundaries. Working on personal regulation, communication, and self-awareness is intensified and challenging.
• Love for the natural world and beauty is maintained.

Now (almost 25): 

• Existential, psychological, interpersonal journeys/challenges still in operation.
• Love of beauty still embraced.
• Calculating next move.
• Journey of calculated action shouts for attention.